I do apologise I haven't completing anything new , I am working on a piece with my ipad , different from Wacom tablet, Is there a scraps/drafts place to upload so people can see if you are busy with something, oh i can upload images into the blog, and that helps. With the heaviness back pain, never ending post covid mucus problem and that fucking war, set me back, where i did some prepping. Fucking around with AI Art and Music to bring what i am trying to say , I couldn't do it all from scratch in such short time and feeling fatigued quite easy. I also taking my time with it as I want to go hyper detail on it if possible

But still working on it because all the distractions and bullshit? Been drained from having Covid , like 2 years back, and the heaviness of WW3 and so how they had fit to my nuclear nightmare. That all changed from the night of the Auroras. I saw so many spaceships in the sky where I lived, (only filmed a shit video of a ship in the distance) , But many were captured in the photographs of people, who were up and about and out. Then it rolled on until it led up to this , which i am just going to copypasta because i dont feel like writing it all over again. Yeah, this is going to be big

"The Elohim(yeah they call themselves that , hebrew name that actually means "Those that came from the stars" aka extraterrestrials ) have arrived

, they did not receive a decent welcoming , when the military wanted to "set them alight" , yes these are the exact words they used.Fortunately they are pacifists with advanced technology, the violent stupidity fell of like water off a duck's back. They would like people to build an extraterrestrial embassy ( https://etembassy.org ) .

Orbs have been scanning people

so when there is a nuclear catastrophe, the rescue mothership is in the solar system and would be used to save lives.

I love you all so much....

First Contact is Happening."

First contact is fucking happening. i understand a lot of you would struggled to get your heads around it

I am exhausted ... trying to document all the sightings across the planet. yes some fo them did do the 'Encounters of The Third Kind" light shows. I get very emotional breaks my heartt when the militaries want to shoot them out of the sky.

The Latest song was removed because it used AI vocals... i guess that is not allowed , but the message is important.

ADVANCED TECHNOLOGY ADVANCED RESPONSIBILITY STOP THE WAR NO MORE WAR

Is the civilisation warp capable if they using warp cores and reactors from ET starships to carelessly power energy weapons ? They didn’t build the cores themselves , or did they manage to replicate the warp core and reactor ?

No One Likes My organic Sounds...maybe i have mistaken .. because this track done 7 years ago ..https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/744061 looked like the orb light patterns in https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SVvkyQtDgj0,done a year ago. flashing for Peace and No War///

I spoken with the admin , they want to make New Grounds AI art/music or part-AI art/music free , only organic art and music they are allowing . Which is I think would be a good oasis of organic music and art in the future of AI.

To get updates and links to sources on UFO sightings and stuff, First Contact updates primary forcus on the construction, opening and use of ExtraTerrestrial Embassy https://etembassy.org and assisted by https://alliance4et.org/ (Facebook keeps on deleting that one for some unknown reason) News, War News from KLW World News Public Alerts, troop position analysis, Occasional Solar Weather & Public Analysis , personal commentary/diary from me as an intersexed ET hybrid, memes, art, music, science, spirituality, Meditations, Raelian Movement https://rael.org teachings from Rael and shared from Raelians/members etc etc. All the Fun Stuff,,,on my X account. (Those who are on my FB get more or less the same stuff).

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Full Conferance Video: The Raelian Movement, Starseeds, Hybrids, Ufologists,

was visited by a mothership on the 9th November, and its responded as Family.It was in the clouds, and only the lights shon out, and I was telepathically connected, and The lights flashed excitedly when I mentioned family. This song is about the feeling I have when it responded as Family, yes its The Elohim and my Extraterrestrial mother and Family First compiled in Ignite, Added bits and bobs and more instruments and sequences in Logic, fully Organic Music, No AI Elohim and Family Mothership above and or in the clouds, combined clips HD (limited to the quality of Android Doogee S41 ,and iPhone SE 2020) Yea the lights on this mothership drift more into the UV range compared to the ordinary street lights , the Android phone cam did a better job on capturing the different wavelengths of the lights in street and buildings and the mothership lights. In naked eye they were like in a blue green shift , but when I was communicating they changed colours a bit to purple pinks and oranges , when the ship at first got my attention it shown a teal laser light at me through the clouds.

Why was I born, why was I born with both genders to be then have forced surgery by parents to the gender they want? Why was I bought up in the gender they wanted, Why did I develop ? Why do I exist on this planet ? Why am I an organic meatbag that lives an insignificant amount of time compared to stars and galaxies and galaxy clusters ? Why is life short ? Why are people assholes ? Why do people find pleasure in seeing me suffer, and post me on Encyclopedia Dramatica because I was born different ? Why was I born, why am I an organic life form ?I only wish to be accepted who I am and only get attention to people who hate me ? Why did my parents abuse me ? Why do people abuse me when I looked up to them and hoped for insight, some guidance on the things, and they turned on me because I did not understand why they do things to me and made me appear stalkerrish, and their responses to me made me do more of it ? Why am I here , why do I exist ? why do I hate myself ? Is it because what what people have done to me when I tried to love myself, explore with myself and be myself as it came out to freakish ? Why am I even alive when I tried to kill myself.. I want to do things be creative . Why did I get coronavirus and not die , but still struggling with wanting to do what I want to do each day because coronavirus fucked me up badly , where I feel I am over long covid , but now still feel have to recover from long covid , why do I suffer, why do people suffer why do people get joy and happiness from observing other people suffer ? Why did I get benaned from websites just because I am me ? why are people dogmatic ? Why do people suck ? Why do I hate myself ? why do I want to kill myself and why do I not want to kill myself ? Why do I want to see as much as I can in the universe that even if I had a space craft that can travel across the galaxies like stepping on pavement stones when it is still insiginificant to the size of the infinite universe(multiverse) ... what is the point ? Why am I happy when I create, why do I get unhappy when people hate me ? Why do they hate me ? Why do I hate people who hate me?

What is the purpose of living ?

Why do I want to kill myself ?Why do I want to live as long as I can so the things of the present become meaningless and all the hate fades away with time., why do I hate time ? I feel there isn't enough of it to be able to do what I want to do. I feel frozen in time when time ticks away , wanting to do something, but cant get starting into something...

I feel tired , I feel worn out... I just want to sleep and sleep and wake up in the next millennium when I hope things be better.. when I can get a new body...

Where and why do I have to live now through suffering why us there suffering

Why do people get happiness and joy from me suffering

Why did they waste their time doing something that makes them happy, and everyone else happy without anyone suffering or be in pain by their actions ?

why are people cruel ? Why did be born this way that would make people give themselves the reason to be cruel to me ?

Why are there people , why is there life in the universe when it could have all been matter and no consciousness ? Why is life short why is their pain and suffering , why do I know more pain and suffering than joy and happiness ?

As you know I have started on the project of ETs rescuing Earth wildlife from earth humans when they go extinct, and allowing them to reside on reserve planets/moons. People love wild animals (or should, which doesn't explain why some are heading towards extinction, which is the real life satire of this work).. These are designed in 3D as a reference and then painted on canvas. Nature , wild animal art is popular , this could develop into a source of income, and would attempt to sell these. This would be done timely/spread out as you know oil paint takes ages to dry.

Scrapping the LoneElf project... was a good idea, but too many bad memories of the past due to other people who are still persistent of discriminating me , and recent events with media and politics against transgender and intersex people seems to be mirroring the simulated world around these elf characters with Earth humans and current reality.. To traumatising to work on, as I just want to escape from all this. (concepts might still be cannon for new content/future lore, but not as a main story ) Was a concept about how an Elf people on a planet who were born intersexed and were chased off planet by the members of the binary sex.. as breakaway civilisations, then to be hunted by the binary gender empire that formed on their home world with ambitions to conquer their entire galaxy.

Continuing the rainbow space elves 3D content and later painted but less frequently, or for wallpapers. Depending how explicit it is, some works may or may not be on deviant art. They won't be on new-grounds, but only as the final oil/acrylic paintings. The 3d reference renders would be on DA or my personal website, and maybe on other sites who accept poser/daz renders.

Random topic content/genre art... I do so something random and unexpected , this would also slot with my music creation. I need to create some new music too.

Finding new art sites to spread the presence of my work..

Now the exciting news...

Finally I have come up with a new project with would be more focused around digital drawing/painting and might develop into an adult comic if all goes well. About a space elf people of a variety non-binary sex/genders who explore the universe in their organic tentacle spaceships/spacecraft and what happens when they make first contact with earth people. The culture clash on an explicit, provocative, nymphomaniac "who needs clothes, when the weather is fine " people vs the future of earth humans with their views of morality in a political and religious sense and the chaos it creates because it blows their minds and kicks religion out of the window when the system crashes and freezes.

This is so exciting topic to build on and get lost into. Unfortunately not all the work of this would be on deviant art , because of content policy, but would be in other places.

As you know, Its taking months to fully recover from COVID-19. Caught the stupid virus in March at the doctors after having my tri-monthly injection, while on my out from the GP practice at Pallion Health Centre in Sunderland on my way to use the elevator to get down, because it is easier for my broken back than to use the stairs.I should have used the stairs that day, then I would not have caught the virus. A patient came out of the elevator struggling to breath, while coughing profusely non stop... without covering her mouth on the 2nd of March. That very day I heard the news later on when I was sick that the practice temporarily shut down because of COVID-19 infection and was in the process of being disinfected.

The 5- 6th of March, cold/flu like symptoms started. I thought it was another cold/flue that would go on for two to three weeks, and then return to normal. Nope, this thing escalated worse than cold/flu during the second week , with shortness of breath and lung pain, extreme fatigue, diarrhoea, weak heart, clotting risk, extreme headache, body pains, sepsis, fatigue and exhaustion on top of flu/cold like symptoms. I "recovered" at the end of March, but relapsed with post viral fatigue that has been dragging on for months

I have had 2 secondary bacterial infections in the chest and sinuses during the course of recovery. The remaining symptoms after 5 months which are post-viral are acid-reflux induced asthma/morning chest phlegm which is declining , minor sinus flareups, which are declining and almost gone, loss of voice, which has improved to partial loss of voice, and gradually improving.

The NHS has data now on recovery, that a non-ICU person who has COVID can last up to 6 months, which feels about right , now that I am on my 5/6th month of recovery. Those who have been hospitalised and survived, their recovery can take to a year and over...

https://www.yourcovidrecovery.nhs.uk/your-road-to-recovery/when-do-i-need-to-seek-help/

(P.S The website https://www.yourcovidrecovery.nhs.uk appears to be down frequently possibly from overuse...)

I haven't done any digital painting like I done last year and the years before in between working on my traditional paintings while I had been sick and recovering, since I still have tiredness and fatigue.

This year has been a bitch and is feeling worse than last year when the art studio shut down because of Brexshit..

Brexit:

"The Troubles" starting in Ireland - gets called out as fear mongering

Food and medicine shortages -gets called out as fear mongering 

People dying & Martial law - gets called out as fear mongering

The dangers of Brexit get ignored , Brexit isnt stopped.

The shitstorm begins... people die, WW3 happens, all life on earth goes extinct... 

Frog:

The water is going to gradually get warm until it boils - calls it out as fear mongering ... 

The frog doesn't jump put to save it's life

The frog gets boiled alive and dies

Don't be the frog , please... don't be that fucking frog, for the sake of humanity, stop Brexit

Well if things can't get any better, the Sunderland Art Studio closed for good today because lack of funding, as the fucking government finds Brexshit and stock piling weapons and and nuclear weapons more important.... fuck I hate this current fucking government... 

Life is become a real shithole in the UK fast because of this Brexit insanity...

The art Studio was more than just a space to do my oil paintings and concentrate on my art...

Its been a week, kept contact with some of the members , fragments of the Art Studio now exist in various areas of Sunderland, and it isn't everyday at any time.. it is time restricted and limited to materials... no oils... no fucking oil painting... digital art might be an issue if you need a power supply for the Cintiq 

Oil painting and digital I now would be doing at home... even getting one of the studios 27" iMacs for 200 quid can't take away the shock and anxiety of the the Studio closing... this iMac was the Studio's and people used it... and now that is gone... its moved closer towards the end of my reoccurring nightmare ... hoping that Brexit would end , which would bring back the Art Studio again... can't mount it to my monitor stand , to heavy, so it will have to sit on desk by default design. 

If Brexit happens... things get really bad and dystopian that I could kill myself on Halloween , as I don't want to see myself die for real in surviving a nuclear war, living in fallout or being incinerated, with mystery not knowing if Earth was blown into an asteroid belt between Mars and Venus.

Well while you falling to the the plans of the OperationPaperclip, CIA , The Military Industrial Complex and only seeing their TrumpRussia BrexitRussia Smokescreen,

...they carefully plan WW3

Stop Brexit Save The Planet  and End Human Suffering

I live in UK and suffer from PTSD from abusive childhood and a rape experience. I have a broken back,from attempted suicide and recently live on ESA and PIP from the DWP in UK. I am in the process of getting gender surgery done, as I am Intersexed, and parents a month after was was forced into the gender what they wanted me to be. In order to get surgery done I needed be mentally stable, and was hoping to start off with surgery next year once I have met health objectives and requirements to qualify for surgery like focusing on quitting smoking etc, so the surgery can be successful. The surgeon mentioned that I have a few complications because of the small amount of tissue I have remaining down there, as well as the risks I have with a broken back, which issues could arise because of the broken back.  I had been planning to focus on this, before anything else, requires a lot of thinking and planning, and the surgery in itself is a big thing because of the possibilities of things going wrong. 
I have PTSD from past traumas of attempted suicides of my parent's religious beliefs in refusing to accept me as the gender I feel I am, being stabbed and almost bled to death for a mobile phone in South Africa, raped by someone who turned out to be a serial killer.
The DWP jumped to soon while I am in the middle of this medical process, forced me to do a fit-for-work assessment. Still on ESA, but they changed the ESA from Support Group to Work related Activity group, where you are forced to do things, like answering the phone, doing interviews, or being forced to work with group of people you don't know. If you fail, they sanction you until you end up being forced homeless, or driven to suicide, something which i have done before. Monday I receive a call from them. I am afraid that I might miss the call when passed out, or I get the call and the way they talk to me would cause me to self harm or try suicide again. 

The DWP have been sending spies and stuff to harass me including pretending to be an extraterrestrial friend, so they can gather information, and use it to attack me. This has seriously effected my mental health, that I stay away from people.
Last week when I had been traumatised from the spying and ET friend impersonator on twitter, I was called to be examined by a GP by the DWP. I never seen this doctor before at the practice. A week later today I made an appointment with my actual GP. Arrived and found this GP there, as i was wanting to equire about my injections and also make an appointment to see a psychologist to get professional help. I broke down in corridor at the practice, and asked where my actual GP is, the one that regularly does my checkups, blood tests, and injections. They say he no longer in practice. I feel that he might be there still, and DWP forced the practice not to get help from my GP.
earlier this week, I got a letter that I need to go to another work capability assessment for my PIP, which i use for taxi fair to the Art Studio, as I cant walk the distance anymore with my broken backThey want to cut this to force me to be stuck living in my flat alone. Also the work activity groups they would force over to prevent me from going to the art studio,for slave labour.

I had to return home withe a new GP appointment with another GP whom I know has been at the practice from what I known and filled in when my original GP was on holiday leave.  that is on Wednesday after the time where i get that call from DWP is on Monday. 

I contacted the crisis team(suicide helpline), they suggested I contact DWP to tell them that I might pass out and miss the call, or that when they talk they could drive me to self harm or attempted suicide. I told them i cant, because I am afraid at the moment to talk to anyone from DWP i don't know. She said i must do, which caused me to fall, and lie on the ground, banging my head repeatedly on the kitchen cupboard until everything went black. My head is swollen and sore.

There is a chance that I might miss the call, from passing out and getting sanctioned, or answering the call, and the things they say might drive me to self harm again or attempt suicide. I tried to contact my GP today to set up appointment for psychologist. The GP not there anymore they say, I came home with no psychologist appointment and the fear of this doctor who did a DWP examination on me to give me injections.

I have no professional help, i know I would do it when they drive me to it, and i wont be able to stop myself.

Been stalling on my recent artwork, because of certain things are fucking up in actually getting shit done in moving on in life.
At the moment I have been considered mentally stable enough to qualify for surgery after focusing on getting the health prerequisites prepared for surgery, the DWP decided to jump ahead, instead of waiting for me to get the fucking surgery done, which would have been the logical outcome of my situation. But this stupid government has no logic, and everyone is a cash making machine to the system of the human stock farm called a country, and not treated like people of the planet.

I have PTSD that any stress would cause me to self harm, and my sole focus should be preparing for the surgery, not doing things that would affect my mental health in coping with day to day bullshit that people throw at me, which the work activity group would most likely do in making my mental health stability worse.
They moved me off Support Group ESA to Work Activity Group, where I would have expect to do things, and if i cant do them because of my problems.
This is very much almost the same as part f my reoccurring nightmare, where my surgery gets cancelled (Time condensed into a nightmare that is a few hours could be years.

..but Brexit and Trump has already happened. Its two minutes to midnight and WW3 is close even when the North Korean issue has been placed under ice, Nukes still exist... and there is 15000 of them on this planet aimed to different regions of the same planet. Like a dude with a thousand guns pointed to his own head.

If i have a breakdown like in 2011 , my surgery gets delayed another 5 to 10 years if I survive another attempted suicide, my body is already in bad condition because of it. When that day happens  it personally is an indicator when the mushroom clouds appear, 80:20 I survive and die from radiation poisoning in the arms of an extraterrestrial who rescues me after the war, because it wasn't safe to rescue me, with the space force now in place, or get vaporised with my silhouette plastered on the inside of a train, with a nuke detonating close outside near the railway line.

I am barely coping, and I am nervous and deteriorating under the stress and fear of the first interview, such as urinating and defecating in my sleep on rare occasions, passing out and fainting on the concrete flat floor, chipping a tooth or two, excessive vomiting after eating and fear of self harm from unwanted stress caused by discrimination, attempt of bulling by bigoted people on the street for just being born different, walking with difficulty because of a broken back and having to deal with stupid people who don't understand my situation face to face....

The extraterrestrial told me, they sorry they could not rescue me, because they were shot out of the sky and bailed death....and i in tears that they almost lost their own life to try and save mine.
There is nothing special about me, like they think I am, I am broken, and I am fucked I was probably that beautiful flower, but now just like a plant who had been under the tires of a bulldozer, that moved back and forth several times. The first was a month after I had been born with forced surgery to the gender of my parent's wishes and the so called fucking "will of god".

Trying to squeeze in another tallships painting, but a bit more extraordinary and dramatic. Definately your distinctive pirate ship galleon... and maybe a  discrete sea-monster also ... because it is in a shorter time span...I would resort to acrylic and abandon the oils... so even the US Army cannot invade the canvas.